Wednesday, August 20, 2025

Church Hill Tunnel Commemoration Tour

 


Thursday, October 2 and Friday, October 3

October 2nd, 1925 in Richmond started like most other days, but it would go down leaving a permanent scar on the community’s mind and landscape.
We will mark 100 years since the collapse of the Church Hill Train Tunnel with a series of “give-what-you-wish” mini-tours. Tours will start at Richbrau Brewing Company and proceed to the west end of the tunnel, sharing the history of the tunnel and the urban legend of the Richmond Vampire that came in the decades that followed.
Tours will be 45-50 minutes, round-trip from Richbrau Brewing. The first tour will be at 6:30PM, with tours leaving every 20-30 minutes until 8:00PM, on both October 2nd and October 3rd. Tour availability is first come, first served. Space will be limited and we are not accepting reservations. Check in with the Haunts of Richmond table upon arrival to register.
Select merchandise will be available for sale, including books about the train tunnel collapse and the Richmond Vampire. Local author Sharon Pajka will be in attendance with her new book, Haunted Virginia Cemeteries, featuring Richmond’s Hollywood Cemetery and the Vampire legend.

Monday, August 11, 2025

A book signing, a cemetery tour under the full moon, and feeling grateful...

Moonrise over the James River, Hollywood Cemetery, Richmond, Virginia

There’s a popular perception about professors and summer. The story goes something like this: when classes end, we pack away our notes, grab a good book, and spend the next few months soaking up the sun, traveling, or enjoying leisurely mornings with endless cups of coffee.

While that might be true for some, my summer has looked very different. The weeks leading up to the fall semester have been some of my busiest and most rewarding. This summer I have spent my time working and as a volunteer where I connect with my community, and push creative projects forward, work that fuels both my writing and my teaching.

This past weekend was a perfect snapshot of my summer. On Saturday morning, I had a book signing at the Richmond Public Library. The turnout was incredible, and I was reminded once again that my best-selling venues happen to be two places steeped in history and meaning: the library and the cemetery. Both are spaces where stories are preserved, just in different ways.

After signing books, catching up with friends, and meeting new readers, I grabbed lunch with a friend before preparing for my evening Full Moon cemetery tour. This was no ordinary night. We gathered under the Sturgeon Moon in Aquarius, an air sign that speaks to communication, shared visions, and building bridges between past and future. I always try to start each Full Moon tour with a fresh perspective, and this time I even threw in a dad joke which, I must say, landed surprisingly well. It was a reel-y good joke!

We had around 65 attendees that night. Over the course of the three Full Moon tours I have led this summer, we have raised 2,875 dollars for the Friends of Hollywood Cemetery. That money goes directly toward preserving this historic site and ensuring that its stories and beauty remain for generations to come.

After the tour, a few new friends invited me out to a diner. I said yes. That is not my usual post-event routine since I am often home well before midnight, but this time I stayed out until 1 a.m. and it was worth every minute. The good conversations, laughter, and sense of connection cannot be scheduled into a calendar. Okay, it can, and I used to have a spontaneity sticker for my planner, but you know what I mean. 

On Sunday, I ventured into new territory with my first visit to the Oddities and Curiosities Expo. I had never attended before since taxidermy has never been my thing, as I like my goth a little less literal, but I am so glad I went. The creativity on display was inspiring, and I left with my hands full of art. 

Every tour I lead, every conversation I have, and every new experience I step into adds something to my toolkit as an educator. History comes alive when you have walked the ground where it happened. Storytelling deepens when you have stood under the moonlight sharing it with others. Creativity expands when you are open to unexpected inspiration.

For me, summer is not downtime. It is an investment in the work I will be doing all year long. When the semester begins, I will bring these experiences, stories, and renewed energy into my classroom. My students do not just get lectures, they get a richer and more connected view of the world because I have been out there engaging with it.

So yes, the sun is shining, and somewhere in a cemetery, there is a lounge chair with my name on it. For now, I am busy, and I would not have it any other way.


Tuesday, August 5, 2025

Painting ghosts in the cemetery



We started our day with an Almond Joy latte for Babushka and a Coco Loco for me from Rivers Edge Coffee. With warm cups in hand, we made our way to Overlook 3 at Hollywood Cemetery, with a perfect view, arguably the best, of the James River and the skyline of Richmond.

Lunch came courtesy of Sally Bell’s Kitchen. Babushka went with the Roast Beef & Swiss, while I opted for the Egg Salad Box Lunch, each complete with the perfect sides (potato salad, deviled eggs, and cheese wafers). We claimed a quiet spot near Palmer Chapel and let the day unfold.

Armed with paint-by-number kits featuring ghostly cemetery scenes (because of course we are going to paint ghosts in a cemetery), we settled in. The breeze was soft and the company was steady. Sometimes we talked, sometimes we let the cemetery do the talking.

There were mild grievances, such as Color #7 being questionable at best, and Colors #8 and #9 may have had identity crises, but even our complaints felt like part of the ritual. We spent the afternoon haunting the place, slowly bringing spectral forms to life with every careful brushstroke.

It was my book release day, and oddly, perfectly, it felt like my own kind of release too. A day painted with laughter, ghosts, and Babushkas just the way I needed.

Thursday, July 31, 2025

Episode 243 - Haunted History: Exploring Virginia's Cemeteries with Sharon Pajka

🔮 Prepare yourself for the séance… 🔮

Cemetery Travel Royalty Returns: Loren Rhoads Launches Kickstarter for New Book!

I’ve been a fangirl of Loren Rhoads for years, long before I could call her a friend. Her writing, her insight, and her fearless curiosity made me feel seen. She showed me that it’s okay, even beautiful, to explore cemeteries not just for research, but for recreation and reflection. 

Loren is truly the queen of cemetery travel. She runs CemeteryTravel.com, an incredible resource and community hub for taphophiles, historians, travelers, and the merely curious. And now, she’s back with a brand-new book! Still Wish You Were Here: More Adventures in Cemetery Travel 

This new memoir collects 35 essays from Loren’s journeys through more than 50 burial grounds worldwide from California’s Gold Country to the streets of Singapore, Tokyo, Rome, and beyond. Fifteen of these stories are brand new and exclusive to this book!

Whether she’s tracking down the graves of cultural icons, getting wonderfully lost in foreign churchyards, or meditating on mortality, Loren’s stories are vivid, thoughtful, and deeply inspiring.

Kickstarter is live! and runs until August 8, 2025
https://www.kickstarter.com/projects/lorenrhoads/still-wish-you-were-here-more-adventures-in-cemetery-travel

If cemeteries call to you the way they do to me, if you’ve ever wandered through one feeling connected, curious, or just at peace, this is the book to support.

Thank you, Loren, for making this strange and sacred form of travel feel like home.

Monday, July 28, 2025

Morning Coffee at Hollywood Cemetery

This morning included dropping off my husband at work. Since his office is just down the street from Hollywood Cemetery, I couldn’t resist a detour. With my travel mug of coffee, my yogurt for breakfast, and my journal, I headed down the road, telling myself that I was going to wait out the morning traffic before heading home.

I made my way to one of the overlooks perched above the James River, where the sound of water and the steady hum of cicadas offered a loud, living backdrop. It was one of those perfect early summer mornings, humid but not too hot, buzzing with life, and full of stories waiting to be discovered. There were some fallen limbs and leaves from last night’s storms, and the grass was heavy with morning dew that soaked through my shoes as I walked. I didn't mind, though. 

After journaling, I wandered into some parts of the cemetery that I rarely make time to explore when I'm giving guided tours. There’s something so different about visiting a place without a plan, just letting the place guide your way. 

This morning, they led me to the Crenshaw plot not far from President’s Circle, where I caught a delicate and distinct fragrance on the breeze: the Musk Rose, or Rosa moschata. This particular rose is something special. Once believed to be extinct, the Musk Rose was rediscovered right here in the Crenshaw plot some years ago. Since then, it’s been found in other locations, all tied to the same family. Thanks to the foresight of folks like Connie at Hartwood Roses, cuttings were taken, and the rose now grows in nurseries and gardens, safe from vanishing again. You can read more about its journey on her blog: hartwoodroses.blogspot.com.

This morning, the bush held only two blooms. This rose bush is unique for having two different types of flowers. Apparently, one form is a mutation of the other. It’s a rare and lovely thing to see in person (but mostly to smell!), and even more special knowing its story.

As I was getting ready to head out, I ran into two women walking through the cemetery, sisters with one visiting from Savannah, Georgia. Naturally, the conversation turned to cemeteries. We chatted all things Savannah: Bonaventure Cemetery, the infamous Midnight in the Garden of Good and Evil, and the meandering paths of Colonial Park that cut through the city. We even touched on Laurel Grove Cemetery, the final resting place of Juliette Gordon Low, the founder of the Girl Scouts. I love Savannah cemeteries, but you just cannot beat the breeze of the river, which helps keep those pesky gnats away. I bought a mesh head net for the next time I visit Savannah.   

I gave the sisters a quick impromptu tour of Presidents Circle and pointed out John Tyler and James Monroe, the Lloyd family plot (What happened to Frank? If you are familiar with the grave, you know what I'm talking about), and, of course, I had to introduce them to the Musk Rose before parting ways.

There’s something incredibly grounding about mornings like this, feet wet with dew, cicadas singing, unexpected conversations blooming among the graves. History isn’t just in books or plaques; it’s in the plants, the stones, the people you meet, and the stories you pass along.

And sometimes, it starts with a cup of coffee and a slight change in your morning routine. 

For those who couldn't get out to the cemetery this morning, here's a short video of part of my morning stroll. 



Thursday, July 24, 2025

“Writing the Dead”: A Creative Reckoning with America’s Last Taboo

Black Beauty rosebud currently blooming
This morning, I read "The modern taboo that Americans just can’t seem to break," Sara Youngblood Gregory’s timely piece in Vox on the persistent silence around death in American culture. It’s a moving exploration of how, despite our thoughts often turning to mortality, we struggle to give voice to our grief, our fears, and our hopes about what comes after. From families that sidestep the subject altogether to a culture shaped by euphemism and for-profit deathcare, the result is clear: we are left ill-equipped to process loss or live fully in its shadow.

That’s why I’m offering a new six-week course this fall through the Transformative Language Arts Network: Writing the Dead.” This course is not about resolving the mysteries of mortality. It’s about embracing them openly and together.

Black Beauty rose from my garden
Like Gregory’s article, this course begins with the premise that our reluctance to speak of death carries real emotional, psychological, and even societal costs. And yet, there is a powerful antidote in the act of making meaning. When we write and create in the wake of loss, or in conversation with it, we don’t just face death, we build a relationship with it. We connect to memory, to community, and to what it means to be alive.

Over six weeks, we’ll gather to explore death, grief, and remembrance through creative writing, visual art, and dialogue. We’ll read short texts, examine art, and create our own responses to profound questions. Writing letters to the dead, crafting rituals of remembrance, and sharing our stories will become tools for deep inquiry, healing, and transformation.

As the Vox article makes clear, most Americans think about death regularly, but only a third ever talk about it. This course offers a space to break that silence. Not in isolation, but in community.

Together, we will:

  • Explore cultural and personal narratives around death and dying.

  • Use writing to process grief and affirm connection.

  • Learn from traditions that treat death as an integral part of life—not a forbidden subject.

  • Approach our creative practice not as escape, but as a meaningful confrontation.

If you’re curious, if you’re grieving, if you’ve ever whispered to a loved one who’s no longer here, or wished you could, this course is for you. Let’s step into the conversation that matters most, and discover how writing can become a living dialogue between what’s lost and what remains.

Writing the Dead begins this fall through TLAN. Join us—and let’s talk about what no one talks about.



Monday, July 21, 2025

There’s something truly haunting about Cedar Hill Cemetery in Covington, VA

Covington Virginian, July 2, 1930.

With just a couple of weeks to go before Haunted Virginia Cemeteries is released, I find myself both counting down the days and diving even deeper into the stories that inspired it.

This project has never just been about ghost tales, though there are plenty of those to share. This research has been about honoring memory, tracing forgotten histories, and paying attention to the places where the veil between worlds feels just a little thinner.

On Wednesday morning, I’ll be leading a Meandering Among the Markers writing event in Richmond’s Hollywood Cemetery. We’ll be walking, talking, and listening closely to the quiet echoes of the past. And later this week, a few friends and I are preparing for a séance. These are the ways I stay close to the material, and how I continue to be reminded that these stories don’t always stay on the page.


One site that continues to haunt me is Cedar Hill Cemetery in Covington, nestled in the Alleghany Highlands. With more than 10,000 burials stretching back to 1816, the cemetery is a striking landscape of stone and shadow. But it’s more than just historic. Cedar Hill pulses with the kind of eerie energy that makes even skeptics like me hesitate. Strange lights have been reported there for nearly a century. In a 1930 article from Covington Virginian, witnesses described blue flames flickering over a single plot, vanishing when anyone tried to get close. Others reported seeing them on the same night, describing them as ghostly, bluish will-o’-the-wisps. No source was ever found. No earthly explanation ever confirmed. And yet, they’re said to appear still.


Folklore has long warned us about blue fire. In European traditions, it’s often a sign of spirits or hidden treasure. Bram Stoker’s Dracula featured them, too, glowing mysteriously in the Carpathians. In Cedar Hill, they may just signal the presence of a soul that never found peace.

And then there’s the legend about the statue, a marble woman forever frozen mid-step, said to represent a young bride who died tragically on her wedding day. According to local legend, she fell down the church steps and broke her neck. Her grieving husband commissioned the statue in her image, but visitors claim she mourns still. Some even say the statue bleeds but only on Halloween. Journalists have gone out to witness it. None have succeeded. But the stories persist.

Nearby lies another grave, and another story, one that chills me every time I think about it. A young mother buried in 1848, was thought to have died of grief after losing her child. When the cemetery moved her grave decades later, workers discovered her remains face down, one hand raised near her head. It’s believed she had been in a coma, mistaken for dead, and awoke after burial. Her final moments must have been pure terror. Some say her spirit still lingers, her anguish imprinted in the ground itself.


Cedar Hill is not a place you simply visit. It’s a place that lingers with you. Those who walk among the graves at Cedar Hill don’t always leave unchanged. 

Sometimes, they carry a little of the place with them.

Saturday, July 19, 2025

Two Weeks Until My Book Release—A Reflection on Pocahontas Cemetery


In just about two weeks, Haunted Virginia Cemeteries will be released. As I count down the days, I’m also deeply immersed in the work that led to this book: honoring memory, summoning stories, and yes, even preparing for a séance later this week (more on that soon). 

This week is a full one. I’ll be leading the TLA Community Circle via Zoom tomorrow evening and leading a Meandering Among the Markers event in Richmond’s Hollywood Cemetery on Wednesday morning. 


As I think about conjuring spirits, my thoughts return to my own family story—my grandfather, Stanley Pajka, a coal miner in Luzerne, Pennsylvania, who died of tuberculosis at forty-four. My father was just a child, unable to hug his “Pop” during those long, isolated months in a sanitorium

That history echoed strongly during my trip to Tazewell County, Virginia, where I visited Pocahontas Cemetery, established after the tragic 1884 mine explosion that killed at least 114 men. Walking among the graves, I saw inscriptions in Polish, Russian, Hungarian, Italian, and English, reminders of the immigrant labor recruited to Appalachia by coal barons, far from the American dream they were promised. 

Like the towns I visited in my childhood, Pocahontas is steeped in memory and haunted by loss. Ghostly sightings and unexplained phenomena persist in the cemetery. With recent state funding for restoration, including ground-penetrating radar to locate lost graves, perhaps the spirits are stirred by our renewed attention. 

A century after the disaster, Historic Pocahontas Inc. erected a memorial near Centre Street. Every year, the town holds a candlelight vigil to honor the miners. The dead are not forgotten, and their presence, I believe, is still felt. 

Stay tuned as I share more stories from the road and behind the veil. The ghosts are ready. Are you? 

Wednesday, July 16, 2025

🪦 Meet the Author – Book Signing Event 🪦

On Saturday, August 9, 2025, I’ll be at the Richmond Public Library Main Branch (Lobby Table) from 9:00am to 12:00pm with a selection of my books—come say hello!

I’ll have copies of:

  • Haunted Virginia Cemeteries 👻
  • The Souls Close to Edgar Allan Poe: Graves of his Family, Friends, and Foes –winner of the 2024 Saturday 'Visiter' Awards presented by Poe Baltimore
  • Women Writers Buried in Virginia 🪦

While Richmond welcomes the wonderfully weird at the Oddities & Curiosities Expo that weekend, I’ll be just a few blocks away offering a literary detour for those who love history, mystery, and the macabre. The Richmond Public Library is committed to supporting local writers, providing a relaxed setting for readers to discover new voices.

Stop by, browse, chat, and grab a signed copy—I’d love to see you there! 🖋️📚



Tuesday, July 15, 2025

Poetry

This Summer, I Rooted Myself

This summer, I will not flee
no packed bags, no distant sea.
No cemetery vacay, no grand escape,
instead a work-cation in my own shape.

While others chased far-off peace,
I found that staying brought more release.
No packed itineraries or travel plans,
just time unfolding in my own hands.

I stayed, and in the staying, grew
in garden soil and words renew.
Seven summers in this place,
from poison ivy to a greener oasis.

The cardinals called from nearby trees,
five bunnies scattered through hydrangeas' knees.
And as chainsaws echoed down the street,
I made our yard a safe retreat
a wildlife haven, full and wild,
a home for birds, for blooms, for sundials.

I worked not in a rigid frame,
my perspective changed in this domain.
The kitchen island bore my dreams
The patio, my quiet schemes.
The screened back porch with my comfy chair,
Wind chimes chiming through the air.

I nurtured more than stems and leaves
I cherished the moments; I chased beliefs.
An online course, where poems could grow,
each word a bloom, a friend or foe.
I built not just a garden fence,
but space for others: knowledge immense.

Moonlit tours through a sacred ground,
workshops where new voices were found.
Creative sparks, both shared and sown,
No one ever writes alone.

And now, another book is nearly here,
a harvest ripened throughout the year.
Not just one dream, but another fulfilled,
by the roots I chose, and the soil I tilled.

So no, I didn’t skip a break.
I just redefined what rest to take.
Each breath, each bloom, a soft staycation
a daily, grounded, holistic celebration.

I rested deep, I worked with grace,
I found my rhythm, held my place.
A summer not escaped, but known
My life, this garden, a perfect home.




You ask me how to pray to someone who is not

You ask me how to pray to someone who is not—a god.
Not crowned in thunder or enthroned abroad,
but ever so near, the silence sings
through roots and wings and hidden things.

Then watch the garden where the Holy grows,
not in cathedral stone, but in divine rows;
where beetles hum and robins preach,
and heaven bends within their reach.

The spider, hanging in the light,
weaves rosaries of silk. At night
its chapel spun between two leaves,
where shadows twist, no one sees.

The bee, golden alms, is its task,
works like prayer, no one asks
how nectar turns to something sweet
a miracle, a glorious feat.

The ant, who knows no creed or fame,
builds temples none will ever name,
yet every grain it lifts with care
becomes a hymn, becomes a prayer.

The birds, with diversity in the living,
Work together, an act of giving
None alone must protect the tree
Against the predators, an act of philanthropy.

The vine, with green and clinging grace,
reaches like hands that seek a face
it climbs toward light with no regret,
a psalm in motion, rise and set.

Even weeds, with thorns and spikes, cast out,
still wear the sun, still grow from sprouts
they teach that grace will always grow
in places we forget to know.

So how to pray to someone who is not—a god?
Pray with seed, with soil, with sod.
Let silence be your sacred text,
and awe the only thing expressed.

For prayer is this: to see, to stay,
to be like them is no more to say.
The garden knows what saints have guessed:
God walks where every creature rests.

Monday, July 7, 2025

A Farewell to Friends


A Farewell to Friends

Like so many wise men—
they never told the whole story.
Not about that old Corvair,
or the Studebaker Avanti.

Car of the Year, 1960.
“Unsafe at any speed.”
“Those accusations were proven false.”
The old car was always there—
from before I can remember.

One day, it would be back on the road,
his engine humming like an afterthought,
the cabin thick with dust and fresh oil,
and something sweet I never could place.

He coughed when he started,
“Leaked oil like a derelict tanker,
his heater tried to kill you with fumes.”
but he never missed a chance to go.

The Avanti came later—sleeker, stranger.
A sharp-nosed dream from another time.
Fiberglass and ambition.
“The fastest production car in the world.”
Sherwood Egbert’s doodle!

He parked like he owned the place.
Leather seats gleaming in the sun,
gauges with numbers too high to believe,
a voice like thunder held back by chrome.

The banter was constant—
compression, design, dignity—
and who had aged with more grace.
It was always loud,
affectionate laughter.

This morning, the Corvair’s engine didn’t turn over.
No cough.
No protest.
Just stillness.
“It had been a good few days.”
“Maybe the alternator?”

Avanti means “onward” in Italian.
But what do you do
when your oldest friend
has parked?

I wish I could stand in the garage again—
tools hanging on the wall,
handing wrenches,
listening to them reminisce about the past.

Corvair—faithful and flawed,
leaking, fuming, alive.
Avanti—beautiful and proud,
still whispering:
Get out there. Drive!

They were never just cars.
Reliable in imperfect ways.
Worn. Strange. Loud.
Utterly present.

Cars hold stories.
We keep them alive—
in the way we remember,
in the way we say goodbye,
in the way we drive.

  • This poem is based on my father's relationship with his close friend, Nelson, who passed just shy of his 89th birthday.  I have never known a world where Nelson wasn't part of our family. I've also never known a world that did not have Studebakers. The photos are my brother and me... and Sherwood, a 64 Studebaker Avanti. 
  • In the top photo, my father must have taken the picture because the car is perfectly framed. My brother is completely chopped out of the frame. Oh no, is that paint? Watch out Sherwood, I’m coming for you!

Tuesday, June 24, 2025

Postcards for my next book arrived today !

 Today's fun surprise was receiving post cards for my forthcoming book! Thanks Arcadia Publishing

Use Code for 15% off entire order: SHARON9

image description: a box with book release cards for Haunted Virginia Cemeteries by Sharon Pajka. The cards include the image of the book cover-- a statue with a large moon and the book title. The back of the card reads "An eerie din provides the soundtrack at Arlington Cemetery, while the gauzy visage of a lady in red flits among heroes’ gravestones. Civil War soldiers meet in perpetual conflict at Mount Hebron Cemetery, and Thomas Jefferson’s restive spirit makes itself known at Monticello. From the ghost that haunted Hollywood Cemetery for months after the Capitol disaster in 1870 to multiple presidential tombs throughout the state where visitors routinely catch a chill, souls find eternal rest to be a fleeting notion in Virginia. Join author Sharon Pajka on a spine-tingling journey of haunted cemeteries throughout the Old Dominion."

Monday, June 16, 2025

Rain, Eagles, and Brokedown Palace: A Morning at Hollywood Cemetery


This morning, I headed out under cloudy skies for Meandering the Markers, a 90-minute writing and reflection workshop I hosted at Hollywood Cemetery. Designed as a space for creative and contemplative exploration, the session invites participants to tune in—to the stories etched in stone, the quiet around them, and their own inner landscape. 

Even with the steady rain, one dedicated participant showed up, notepad in hand. We moved our chairs beneath the shelter of Palmer Chapel, a beautiful spot overlooking the James River. From there, we could see two bald eagles perched on the large rocks in the middle of the river. I wished for binoculars—my phone’s zoom wasn’t enough to fully capture the moment—but their presence was unmistakable and grounding. 

As we sat with the sound of rain and river, she spoke about music that moves her, the kind of songs that stay with you like old friends. 

After the session, we walked together to find the grave of someone she knew. 

On our way back, we paused in front of a headstone inscribed with the words: 

"Going home, going home 
By the waterside I will rest my bones
Listen to the river sing sweet songs 
to rock my soul."


The lyrics were perfectly suited for the place. What poem was this? I wasn't familiar. 

I looked it up when I got home and smiled—lyrics from Brokedown Palace by the Grateful Dead. It felt like everything had come together in quiet harmony: the eagles, the river, the rain, the music, and memory. 

The poem this morning wasn’t just something we wrote—it was something we witnessed. 

Sometimes, poetry finds us when we least expect it. It rises in the rhythm of conversation, in shared silence, or on the wings of birds sitting by the water. Sometimes, it’s carved in stone, waiting for someone to pause long enough to read it. And sometimes, it’s all of these things at once.

Saturday, June 14, 2025

Poems about Fortune Tellers, Crows, and a Pantoum

This week in my "Twelve Poets to Change Your Life," we read poems by Gwendolyn Brooks & Linda Pastan. Here are three poems inspired by their work. 

One Wants a Teller in a Time Like This 
 
One Wants a Teller in a Time Like This 
A fortune teller who can predict how to bear this business alone. 
A clairvoyant trained in psychography with an old set of Tarot cards 
spread out by her crystal ball. 

One cannot put a coin in the machine 
that spits out a prediction knowing for sure what the future will bring. 

It is certain if or why or how 
One wants a Teller now. 
 
Like Pythia, Don’t Count On It 
or Nostradamus Concentrate and Ask Again 
or Swedenborg, As I see it, yes 
or Edgar Cayce, Very doubtful 
or Jeane Dixon, Better not tell you now 
or the Fox Sisters, (thump, thump) Outlook good. 
 
Behold— 
The Magic Eight Ball 
Reply hazy. Try again later. 


              *Inspired by “One Wants a Teller in a Time Like This” by Gwendolyn Brooks


Before an Elegy with Crows 
 
I.
 
They launch themselves from the crooked wires—
 
five crows, sometimes six—
 
in bursts of laughter,
 
black air punching the morning peace.
 
Then the banging:
 
chimney caps rattled like war drums,
 
garbage can lids struck by their tiny hands.
 
Your roof for their concert,
 
as if they know the end is near
 
and want to mark it with noise.

II.
 
Their racket pierces like the rain
 
on your trailer roof back in Washington—
 
a hard, ceaseless drumming
 
you once mistook for comfort.
 
But these are strange omens,
 
crows lit by the glow of a dumpster fire
 
three streets down,
 
wings glinting orange like they’ve flown through hell
 
and brought back its warmth.

III.
 
There is nothing left to let in.
 
You’ve closed the door, sealed the vents,
 
shut out the last of the light.
 
Still, they find cracks,
 
their cries slipping in sideways,
 
a final intrusion of the world
 
before it forgets your name.

IV.
 
The crows do not flee.
 
They settle like smoke.
 
An uncanny stillness,
 
a hovering that doesn’t blink?
 
And they wait—
 
until you cannot.
 
No silence rises after their song,
 
only the sky,
 
and the sound of fire eating air.
                                           
                                       *Inspired by “The Deathwatch Beetle” by Linda Pastan.


There was an age when I was most like myself. 
Letters sent in envelopes with second chances, 
Refusing the new while holding onto the old, 
Remembering how it felt before their death. 

Letters sent in envelopes with second chances, 
Folded into prayers that I released into the wild. 
Remembering how it felt before their death, 
Each of their words vanishing across the page before my eyes. 

Folded into prayers that I released into the wild. 
Their declarations confessed on college-ruled loose leaf, 
Each of their words vanishing across the page before my eyes. 
Sealed in a grave that nobody visits. 

Their declarations confessed on college-ruled loose leaf. 
Refusing the new while holding onto the old, 
Sealed in a grave that nobody visits, 
There was an age when I was most like myself. 


                      *A pantoum inspired by “Something About the Trees” by Linda Pastan.

Monday, June 9, 2025

Poetry, poets, and books: another day longing for literary trails

I'm currently taking a course, "Twelve Poets to Change Your Life," with Caryn Mirriam-Goldberg through TLAN. We started with Emily Dickinson—so naturally, she’s been blooming in my thoughts lately. 

I spent much of my weekend in the garden. I'm happiest when I have dirt under my fingernails. After repotting plants and tending to those friends in the ground, I finished reading the spring sections of Emily Dickinson’s Gardening Life by Marta McDowell.

Flowers, poetry, and the quiet joy of digging in the earth. 

The second poet of focus this week is Walt Whitman. I  appreciate his ability to celebrate the individual spirit and the vastness of the American experience through imagery. His poetry inspires a sense of connection and self-reflection that feels timeless. 

I used one of the course prompts to compose my own poem, aiming to capture a personal perspective while honoring the tone that characterizes Whitman’s work.

My 51st Year

After the crest of half a century,

Through fog and flame, the spare seasons, the scattered joys,

My mother’s silence now a constant hum,

My father yearning to breathe free— almost eighty-seven,
gathering the light like bread, breaking it.

A new post— in halls once proud with purpose,

Now flickering, ivy fading, gasping in the marble—

Academia, fallen cold and dying? Or maybe just unvalued,

Scorned by those who forget who first opened the page for them.

The world at war again, though not always declared —

the homeless refused, children buried, cities razed— 
the names change,

but death is always the same.
 
And on Flag Day we’re told

to raise banners for a fool in a suit,

those clapping their own backs while

the hungry, tempest-tost, are hushed. 

Yet still — I lift my lamp beside the coffin door, walking —

through campus corridors, past empty chairs,

through streets that forget themselves,

past memorials that call only in whispers.

I reflect still. I write still.

Reporting in — not to salute, but to stand,

and not in uniform,

but with pen and pulse,

that glows with world-wide welcome.

Of course, literature reminds me of my other place to bethe cemetery. While people complain of humidity, especially this time of year, I long to be soaked in my own sweat in a cemetery on a mission to find a story of an author. How I am daydreaming about visiting Dickinson's grave in West Cemetery in Auborn.

These thoughts draw me back to another book, my copy of Literary Trail of Greater Boston by Susan Wilson, which was published when I lived in Massachusetts. Revisiting its pages reignited my interest in the places that connect writers to the landscapes they inhabited. When I lived there, I was a poor high school English teacher just out of grad school with little income and a hefty student loan, so I did not have much leisure time to visit all the places in Wilson's guidebook but I did walk the streets following the tour paths. I went to Walden Pond walking the path to Thoreau's cabin site. 

Now, sitting here on my porch, I’m itching to return and walk the grounds of Forest Hills Cemetery, pay tribute to the poets buried at Mount Auburn, and stand at Author’s Ridge in Sleepy Hollow Cemetery—places where the presence of literary voices still lingers.

Wednesday, May 28, 2025

Roses, Cemeteries & Friendship: A Sunday at Hartwood Roses


This past Sunday, I spent the day surrounded by blooms, history, and some of the best company at Hartwood Roses Open Garden Day. If you’ve never been, you’re seriously missing out—it’s one of those slow, beautiful days where everything smells like roses (literally) and time just feels softer.

This year’s event was on Sunday, May 25, 2025, and as always, Connie’s garden was pure magic. I still can’t believe we have been friends for ten years now. We first connected through our blogs back in 2015, then became social media friends, and cemetery adventurers together. I've attended the Hollywood Cemetery Rose Days that she led. We attended cemetery picnics together, and I've been on a few of her rose rescue missions. She’s a friend and one of the best advocates for preserving historic roses that I know.


Connie’s the reason I started growing cemetery roses in my own yard. She kind of drafted me (in the best way) into the mission to save these historic roses—once lovingly planted in cemeteries, now often neglected or mowed over by well-meaning (I use that phrase loosely) landscapers who don’t realize what treasures they’re cutting down.

There are probably more cemetery roses blooming in Connie’s garden than in most cemeteries. She’s rescued and labeled so many that walking through her garden is like taking a rose history tour. I spotted roses from Congressional Cemetery, tons from Hollywood Cemetery, and even the Emma Trainer rose—the first one I ever worked on reviving during Rose Day. Now it’s a gorgeous velvety red blooming Dr. Huey, thriving and showing off deep red blooms. Not exactly the rose she once was but still loved. 

Connie also introduced me to Anne Spencer’s garden in Lynchburg years ago, and that visit helped me see gardens not just as pretty places, but as living archives of memory and meaning.

After soaking up all the beauty in the garden, I made a stop at Fredericksburg Cemetery to visit the graves of novelist Helen Gordon Beale and her mother, diarist Jane Howison Beale. Sadly, that visit came with a heavy heart. Earlier this month, there was a major vandalism incident at the cemetery—over 15 gravestones were toppled or damaged, including markers belonging to former mayors and others with stunning religious symbolism. Repair costs are estimated at more than $20,000—a big ask for the small non-profit that maintains the space.


It is another reminder of how important it is to care for these tangible pieces of our past, whether that’s gravestones or historic roses. They tell stories. They hold memory. And once they’re gone, they’re gone.

If this kind of thing speaks to your heart, I highly recommend following Connie on Instagram @hartwoodroses to catch next year’s Open Garden Day (and enjoy some seriously gorgeous rose content in the meantime). She’s always sharing updates, and trust me—you’ll want to mark your calendar when the time comes.

Until then, I’ll be tending my little patch of rescued roses and feeling grateful for this community of caretakers, gardeners, and friends.